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Yesterday, I went to the river with Hannah and Bekah. Fun. We went back to Bekah's and had pizza and of course I binged. I didn't purge because Hannah was there and she used to bulimic and it made me too nervous. I had to call Michelle to get me because my car is still fucked up. It was super cool that Michelle came to get me. I need to give her more credit. She truly is my bro.
Today me and Hannah went to a friend's apartment complex pool so we could tan. Spent like three or four hours there. We burned instead. Haha. And then we went for Chinese food and I binged again. I  purged when I got home. I drank three huge glasses of tea during the meal and it made it easier to purge. My mom is cooking dinner now so I might have to purge again. Next week I will be doing my green goddess  diet because the month is almost over and I am too afraid to weigh myself. Hannah weighed herself at my house. She is 165lbs. I wish I weighed that much. That weight is still too high for me, but I'm trying to take it one day at a time. I hope I can get 175lbs by the end of the month. I'm so tired and it's only 6:30pm. I'm gonna sleep before my fast ass eats again.