disappointment x 2

Threw Up. Most of it came out on its own. Rest had to be purged. It hurt. I felt so sick. What a waste of money. I had a very sobering moment when I was brushing my teeth. My tongue was quivering. Twitching. It wouldn't stop. I had no control over it. I even put my hand on it to stop it from quivering but it just quivered under my hand. Like a little animal that had just been abused quivering in the corner. I felt so bad. I will never purge again. If I get sick and puke, then I get sick and puke but I will never do this to myself again. I felt so bad for my little quivering tongue. I did that. I made it tremble and shake with fear. Also, when I was rinsing, after brushing my teeth, there was blood. Did not expect that. I took some pepto to settle my stomach which still won't stop trembling. It was stupid to eat fast food. My first choice of fast food was closed and initially I took it as a sign to not eat anything but then my fatass remembered another fast food joint a bit closer to home. I knew better too. And I had the strength to say no. But I just wanted to make a bad decision. I don't know what's wrong with me. I do stupid things all the time that I so deeply regret. This was one of them. It's better to eat hardly anything and feel hungry than to eat like a pig and feel sick. All that purging made me sleepy.