addict

I think I'm addicted to food. This is embarrassing. I really hope I can shed 10lbs this week. I have been working out everyday. Today I was very active. This was day two of Jillian Michaels. I woke up sore. My car broke down today. Gonna cost a lot to fix. Shit. I'm starving. And I'm not hungry. Does that ever happen to you? I want to go to a drive-thru or take-away. Something cheesy and fried and greasy. Why do I want that? I know it is bad for me. I feel like shit after I eat it. It makes me fat. It is never as good as my mind thinks it is. Ever. So  why... what is in my brain saying "I NEED THAT FOOD"? Food becomes the most important thing to me. It is holding me back from being slim and fit ... from being the person I want to be. How did I just give my control away? How did I become this?