shiver

I'm trying to freeze myself out right now. Didn't get a workout in. Ate too fucking much. Feel like a piece of shit. Tomorrow I am waking up early and hitting the gym hard. Two hours again. I can't wait. I walked around downtown a lot but I did not get sweaty. Hung out with a cool girl I met up here, let's call her Beth. Beth doesn't understand. One of those bitches who eats all the fried food she wants and doesn't gain a fucking ounce. Hate. I mean I love her, but I'm jealous. She has men lined up around the block for her too. I'm such an envious person. I don't care. This is the "me" spot.  I am really tempted to try and purge. It's taking everything in me to keep my shit together... maybe I will  brew some green tea. Yes. That's a good idea. Alright. I'm gonna have to hit the hay soon. Stay strong. Don't give into food. It's so not fucking worth the guilt.