thoughts from a girl

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

I think I've decided to kill myself on my birthday...

Posted by emma at 11:48 PM

emma: I have currently been diagnosed with a Major Depressive Disorder and dependent personality disorder. I have been bulimic/anorexic for about ten years, off and on. I am not sure if I want to get better and writing might help me figure that out. I do not have answers for you. I do not have suggestions to help you end your life, as I have tried and failed and now I am stuck here. I do not need your help if you're trying to tell me my life is beautiful and worth living... I am Christian. I know these things and I am sorry but they are of no comfort. I must face my illness head-on and see if I am come out the victor or the victim.

*all names have been changed, all relationship titles of intermediate family have been changed. I am writing under a false name as well to preserve my anonymity. everything else written here is truth. this is the one place where I won't lie to myself.

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