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Can people really change? God what an overrated question. My honest to God opinion? Can people change - No, they just become better liars. Someone who cheats will always be a cheater. It's too easy. It feels good. It absolutely WILL happen again. Someone with low self-esteem does not suddenly become a champion of self, no matter how many pounds are lost or how dramatic the make-over. I will always be suicidal on some level and I will always hate myself. He will always be a cheater and even if it isn't tomorrow or the next day... he will want to cheat again.

On another really fucking depressing note - I am at an all time fat. Haven't weighed in for months... terrified. Tomorrow morning I will weigh-in. Time for this fat fucking freak show to end. <3